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1/3/2008 - long time no writing

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 10:09:16 GMT

Thought that it was about time that i wrote an update ....

well lets see what is happening in our lives... not much actually. life has been rather calm and relaxing lately. even Christmas this year was not stressfull. I do think that has to do with me over planning and getting everything cooked before hand and then just heating it up on the big day... I think that everyone had a good time as well.... sorry that there is no pictures that is one thing we forgot to do... and this years table setting was out of this world you would have thought that everyone was eating in the very high class resteraunt, but nope they were in my livingroom....

I do need to thank Martha Steward for some great ideas that i would have never had without her wonderful show... I also need to thank Longwood Gardens for the inspiration that they gave as well, because of them each place setting had a little gift, and everything was done in white and silver... a rather dramatic effect.

well Christmas has all been cleaned up and put away. Ben wanted everything away by the new year. so that is what i did for him everything is complete and wonderful for the new year.

oh there is one thing that i should tell everyone out there with a wii..... the game raymond raving rabbeds is awesome. i loved every moment of playing it and i have already beat the game. i just could not stop playing... it has humor that is good for the young and the old... even Ben was getting into it... also the wii bowling is the coolest things that is out there.... Ben had my grandfather playing wii bowling on Christmas morning, that was just awesome.... sadly i do need to say that the game Golden Compass is not good at all. the graphics are rather poor, and the game plot is rather confusing for people that have not seen the movie. i tried to sell it back to game stop, and they would only give me 8$ for a game that i orignally paid 50$. sorry to say i did not trade it in i kept it and will trudge throu it when i have time...

there is one other small thing that is should mention and that is about health insurance... it is unbelievable... i nearlly fell over when i went to the pharmacy the other night. completely insane i tell you... i can see why people would rather be on a well fare health care plan then have a job and get health care through an employer.... i know for a fact that if you have well fare and are on Access drugs cost a single 1$. Here i go to get my meds and it cost me 87$. i really think that this is rather unfair... i know people that are on well fare / access and are getting better medical treatment then i am and yet they are not paying a dime while i am paying a rather large sum. sorry but there have been some months that i was just working to pay for going to the dr. and if i am forced to do that i really feel that everyone should be forced to do the same things... make hard choices... there was a time that i thought that we all had to do this, but after meeting people that are getting free rides and seeing how they are living, and then looking at how i am living with a bunch of hard work it is rather upsetting. Then i think of how hard it is to determine who is in need and who is not, i know that i would not like to be the person that makes that decition... so i do not think that i am going to complain about this problem any longer until there is a good solution.

okay that is it for this post... talk to everyone later.

10/14/2007 - Calendar goodness

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 22:50:22 GMT

i wanted to be able to keep things straight and also have other people aware of what i was doing without having to constantly having conflicts... so i discovered google calendars so now people can see what is planned and when.

just click on the button above and you can see the calendar... if there is anything that you feel should be changed or done please let me know and i will be more then happy to consider it.

oh and the book review is coming, i just have not had alot of time lately to sit down and write it out.

thank you for your time... enjoy

jessa

9/25/2007 - Golden Compass

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 15:40:12 GMT

here is a movie that i so want to see i have read the books and they are amazing.... the imagery that they create in ones mind is out of this world.

i think that it is better then Harry Potter anytime. thou i little harder to ready do to word use.

here is a trailer of the movie that comes out in December of 2007.

if anyone would like a review of the book just let me know and i will post one that will not give way to the ending.

http://www.goldencompassmovie.com/

i hope that you enjoy

jessa

9/25/2007 - Something different

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 15:10:30 GMT

here is something that was sent to me in an e-mail.

it is rather sad and remarkable. the movie below was created by a 15 year old girl.

it is rather moving i thought and well i wanted to share it with anyone that so happens to read my blog.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ervaMPt4Ha0

i hope that everyone enjoys the movie and perhaps thinks a little afterwards.

i am normally not a polictal person i do not like getting involved in that kind of thing, but i have to say this...

i am tired of hearing people talk bad about our President. Bush may have made misstakes and the man has come to the US people and said so. but at the same time He is doing the best that He can and doing what He thinks is right.

Our people are over in the war fighting. We need to finish the job that we went there to do. it does not matter who started the fight all that matters is that we follow it to the end.

the other day i had a talk with Ben and we were talking about WWI and WWII.... He made the comment that in those war it was different we were fighting for our Freedom. the enemy was on our shores. But you know i had to disagree with that, the enemy was not on our shores, the closest the enemy came to us was Pearl Harbor. and yes that woke a lot of people up. the US has lived a rather safe existance rather far from wars. in WWI it was London that was being bombed and France that was being destoried.... they are the peoples that had to rebuild there homes, schools and shops. there was no bombing on our coasts. Yet our men were there fighting and giving up there lives to make sure that others may be free. not us but all of Europe.

so i am wondering why it that different from now. are we not fighting an enemy that wishes to take anothers freedom? and that enemy that we are fighting did bomb our country. they came here and declaired war on us with the destruction on the Twin Towers in NY. i know that my voice means very little and i know that many will not even see this blog post. but i say this. we need to say and fight we need to see this to the end. i am sorry that men are dieing this is war that is what happens in war. Those men and women over there know that they might die. so, i am going to support them as much as i am able too. They are what i believe is keep the war from our shores.

okay i have gotten off the soap box.

9/21/2007 - There is progress

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 18:11:48 GMT

Okay today i must say there is progress. The pain that i have been having since the surgery is starting to go away. I must thank the invention of advil for that i think. I took a big dose of it last night like the Dr. suggested, because the vicodin was just not doning anything and well it did the trick and i was able to sleep with very little pain. Today I have backed off the pain killers, and just used some advil. To me that is a big improvement.

The Dr. said that i would start feeling like i could do things by Saturday and well she was right. I feel by Saturday i will be bright as rain or atleast able to forget about the pain as much as possible.

I think that i will beable to go back to work on Tuesday. thou i still need to tell Lori abuout needing to leave early on the 3rd. That is one appointment that i do not want to miss.

On another topic, I recieved the application for the Community college. Plus i did get a call back from University of DE. Do to being a little out of it lately i have not called back i figured that i would do so on Monday so that i can set up an appointment with the Engineering Department. As per the voice-mail message i got form them i think that they are a bit confused as to what i intend to do. I told them that i already have a BA and that i wish to recieve a BS in Engeering from there school. They asked on voice mail who did i get a BA in Engineering and was i after a Masters? So i think that i need to explain things to them. Atleast try explaining things to them.

Okay lets see what else is there to tell.

Ion has not been acting himself lately. He has not been as active sleeping and laying down alot. Then yesterday i found him licking and scratching at himself, so i think that He has fleas, so i went and got some flea stuff for Him and then others hoping that will bring him out of his funk. if not i will take hime to Saraha and see if she can see what is wrong with him. After all he is my baby boy and i do not want him feeling ill in any way.

well that is about all i have for today. will write more later.

9/20/2007 - Being a Woman sucks

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 18:07:04 GMT

okay it is like 3 days after surgery and well i must say that i am miserable.

i was okay monday, had some cramping but all in all okay, then tuesday it started to hurt but still tuesday morning i was okay.. webnesday i ended up in bed all day because i was just in pain....

now today i have called the Dr. twice she is telling me that everything is okay, that it is because she took so much material out of me, and i will not want to go anywhere just stay home until saturday...

i just want the pain to stop , i hurt so bad it''s not funny, and i am trying so hard to not be grumpy or cranky, and keep a good attitude and such. but i hurt so bad, i just want to cry. i can do this till saturday it is bound to get better. i have to get better. if not i am calling the Dr. on monday and telling her in very firm words that she needs to stop this pain now.

okay i think that i have complained enough will get a drink and go lay back down and see if there is something good on TV.

9/19/2007 - Monday's surgery, and recovery.....

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 08:39:27 GMT

hi everyone.

i would so like to thank Diane for staying with us longer then she expected. She was a big help and a joy to talk with, most wonderful company. thank you very much.

okay lets recap on what happened monday.

monday i went in at 6:30 to have a

{Dilation and Curettage - For dilation and curettage (D&C), the opening of the uterus is stretched (dilated). A special device called a curette is used to gently loosen and remove a sample of the uterine lining. This tissue then is studied in the lab to check for cancer.}

and a

{Hysteroscopy - For hysteroscopy, your doctor inserts a slender, telescope-like device into the uterus to look for areas in the lining that may be abnormal.}

i must say that St. Frances Hospital is out of this world awesome. they are kind, gental and compassionate. just what a person would want in a hospital. i did my best to keep a smile on my face and a positive attitude the whole time. figured why be down in the dumps and all closed up, it was not going to help anything to be that way. one of the nurses even called me a ray of sunshine, that just put a smile on my face.

okay now to the informative parts. the Dr. looked in and found a uterus covered in polyps. one was blocking a flopian tube as well. so she removed all the uterine polyps, sent some biopsies away to have tested, and cleaned out the uterus making it nice and smooth as it should be. She also said that they would come back, so that in a month Ben and i are to work on the baby thing, and get pregant as soon as the uterus is healed and the cervix is closed back down. this is because right now the uterus is what it is suppost to be and the baby has a huge chance to attach to the uterine wall which is a good thing. after the baby is born and things shrink back down to normal i am going to have one more surgery. the Dr. is going to go in and lazer the inside of the uterus, destorying the endometrium (uterine walls) this will stop all growth of the walls, but there are side effects to this, 1. i will not have a period and 2. i will not be able to have anymore children. using the lazer is an alternitive to having a Hysterectomy. the Dr. said that they try not to do Hysterectomies anymore but try other ways of doing things.

i am very happy that she is doing what she can so that Ben and i can have one kid before we have to act on the other stuff.

there is a down fall to all of this, i ended up with a blatter infection, which i must say is not fun. so, yesterday afternoon, and today i am hurting because of the combination of trama that is going on down below. yes, i did call the Dr. and she put me on a bunch of meds to calm the pain and stop the infection.

okay i think that i am going to go and take a nap now.

will write again later. when things have gotten a bit happier and chipper in life.

9/13/2007 - the day after B-day

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 19:41:36 GMT

okay i think that it is about time that i give everyone a update as to what is going on

well yesterday it was my b-day if no one noticed.... grins

i want to so thank Walt and Diane for calling me it was such a surprise to hear Walts voice on the voice mail

and then later in the day Diane's thank You soooooooo much

i will also say that when i received the card from Butch i nearly fell over i was so surprised... thank You Butch so much and it was great talking with You on the phone the other night.

oh and i got to talk to my sister, Grandmother and Step-dad...

okay okay let me recap what all happened from the wick celebration

last friday Ben took me to see Wicked in box seats .... i cried so much and really enjoyed the musical even if it was not like that book in many ways. i even got a T-shirt... it was way amazing

okay what happened yesterday... first thing in the morning i was allowed to open my presents...

there was a new pair of crocs they are blue and oh so nice looking on my feet.... and then i got to open my big present ... it was a wii and the game Zelda. i have been playing it ever since it is a great play system and very natural to use which i did not think it would be.

i love the wii

okay after the opening of the presents Ben was off to work...

i on the other hand had an appointment with my girl Dr. i know it is not the funnest thing to do on ones' birthday but it had to be done, and it was the only time i could see her, you see i was lucky i was taking this med that made me rather sick and was on it for a month, it is called megace. well last Friday was the last dose so i called the Dr. to see what she wanted to do and she said she wanted to see me. and when did she want to see me but on my birthday first thing . so i could not argue. well the appointment sounded really great i was to start on clomide (fertility meds) again and also was to start taking 4mg of folic acid and baby aspirin, once i get preggie then i stop the aspirin and go on injectables which is okay. so it seemed that things where looking up and there was now a plan of action as to creating life.

there was one thing that we had to do and that was an ultra sound to see if the problem i was having was taken care of with the megace... you see a normal uterus is 7-9mm thick and well i ran into a bleeding problem and Dr. order an ultra sound a month ago and discovered that my walls were 17mm thick , the megace was to take care of the wall thickness and shrik it to normal. the only way to tell if it worked is with another ultra sound. which i am great with no problem drink water lay down get to see pics of my insides and then away i go. not a problem besides the Dr. and i thought that the walls would be back to normal. i scheduled the ultra sound for today and had the greatest tech in the world oh she was funny.

the Dr. called me later this afternoon because not everything is perfect and right as she hoped. instead of the walls getting thinner they got thicker now they are 26mm. and it explains alot with how i have been feeling, it was not all the meds fault it seems. i can not have a baby at the moment because the walls are too thick the baby would not be able to attach. the walls need to be thinned and the med did not work so i am having a short quick in and out on Monday to surgically thin the walls and see if she can spot the problem. basically we are going to stop the growth in it's tracks. plus she said that she wants me to get preggie as soon as possible if all goes well. i am hoping that all goes well. guess i am not working on monday ....lol... Ben is going to take off too. it will be good to have Him there with me.

okay back to the birthday....

after the Dr. i went on a secret voyage for a Walt Birthday gift hehehehehehehehe.... it was a very long trip but well worth it. met some really nice people too.. but that is all i am going to say until the actual birthday of Walt.

then i came back home got something to eat and off again i went to an appointment to see about taking a Math class and some other classes at the community college and at University of De... a very cool thing is that the BA that i already have and is worthless will transfer so i will not have to take any junk courses ... it is something to keep my mind from going nuts , and they are cheep enought that working for military pays for them. which is awesome. i need to meet with a person in the engineering department and i am waiting for an app from the community college. don't worry i am going to take this slow and i am not going to tack on more det we have enough everything that i do in regards to learning i plan to pay for with my play money which is the money that i save up from working for Military Fin doing QC. and also working over time in collections. it is a goal to shoot for and a way of supporting myself if something ever happened to Ben god forbid. i need and want to be able to be independent and stand on my own two feet if i need. the sad thing is i looked in the big book of jobs and well my BA in Fine arts is only worth between 24,000 and 14,000$ and they come right out and say you will need a second job you can not live on this. Ben finds this funny me i find it frustrating so i am doing something about it.

from there i came back home and played with my wii until Ben came home.

Ben being the wonderful person that He is surprised me once more with a dinner at Krazy Kats the best place ever {simple elegance}. we both had fish and ice tea it was very good and the waiter was great He remembered us from before and was funny he made the night very enjoyable.

from there we came home and crashed for the night.... i am still tired today from how full the day was.

and i left out the going on line and starting to review algebra problems and working my way to Cal. very exciting stuff LOL

okay i think that is good for one post don't you think... never a dull moment

9/12/2007 - WICK BIRTHDAY

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 00:19:33 GMT

it's my birthday YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

alll celebrate the day of the Wickian birth.....

just kidding it's my birthday and i am like overly tired and way too silly and gitty for my own good....

but i had to share my joy

LOVE you everyone

love You BEN thank You for the site it is out of this world...

jessa

7/18/2007 - update

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:14:17 GMT

okay this is an update

the visitors have come and gone, the house is slowly devolving do to me not being around and working...

i am going to the gym more often because well i do not want to slid back.

oh i have found a bunch of books that i am reading currently, they are great too... i love them sooooo much. they are by Gregory Maguire the first one is called Wicked and it was also made into a play. it is about the life of the wicked Witch and what really is good an evil... and is it really based on the point of view of things and how people see the world around them.

the next one is about her son. that one i have not started on...

plus i have the whole collection of the the Myth books... they are funny and a good read as well.

oh and the best part is Ben ordered me the new Harry Potter book. which was an awesome surprise... i can not wait to get my hands on that book...

there is also something else that is in the works and that is ... i am thinking of going back to school part time and getting a degree in engineering like my lovely hubby.... get myself back out in the work force and do something to help someone else... plus there is the designing of the donut house i am going to start the scale drawling and the model shortly, once the house is cleaned up once more... there seems to be many projects in the works, with holloween coming up and things that i have promised people that i would do...

well when i have time i will be back and write some more not to worry...

6/29/2007 - writing

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 23:12:56 GMT

i was once told that when i write i do so from the heart...

that it does not matter that the words are not spelled correctly or that my grammar is horrid, all that matters is that i write and the meaning , the emotions come through... they are felt when they are read..

i think that Friend is wonderful yes i do think that He is.. because of Him it feels wonderful to write. in fact it is a hobby of mine, even if another soul does not see a word that i right for pleasure that is not a bad thing... nope not at all...

6/28/2007 - home improvements..

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 16:49:07 GMT

i thought that it was about time that i go and update things here on my trusty blog...

i know that i have not been around much or have been talking here all that much lately but i felt that it was time that i did..

today so far has been kind of long.. and very very quiet...

my best friend is away for the next 20 days so i am missing her alot. her and i talk all the time and it fills my days with smiles.

called my grandmom today to just talk and see how things are going with her. she wants me to come over and spend the day with her. so i think that i better find the time to do so, after my house is back to normal

we are doing rather well, the floors are in and we hope to do the electrical done tonight and to have the place cleaned up by this weekend

to me that is rather good progress with all the little things that seem to have gone wrong along the way.

5/29/2007 - the weekend

Tue, 29 May 2007 16:53:59 GMT

hi everyone

i just wanted to let everyone out there know how the weekend went, being that it was a long one and well there was a lot of together time that normally Ben and i do not get. the time that we have together is normally in the morning and then at night for an hour or two. but that is about it.

i think that i surprised Ben this weekend as well. because i choose to do things with his even if it was not my cup of tea then go off on my own and do things.

so let us go back in time all the way back to oh lets say Saturday. lol is that back far enough for you? Well we did not see in that is for sure, but it could have been worse i think. holiday weekend not sleeping in, oh yeah sounds about right.

well Saturday we had plans more plans then we were able to get done. sadly. All day Saturady we worked on the hydroponics system killing aphids i hate aphids they are not nice, and they kill my babies... so i sprayed and sprayed this organic pest killer that was basicly seseame seed oil so that was cool. sadly it did not work as well as we wished it had we still have the little buggers.

we also hung a reflective paper on the walls to help with the light, and we moved the systems around, put new plastic on the floor, and tied the tomatoe monsters up better, oh and i also cut them back a little. well that took almost the whole day which Ben felt bed about but, it was okay it was something that had to be done.

then Sunday rolled along and well we slept in a bit later then normal and it felt soooooooooo good. well i wanted to go bike riding with Ben on sunday not realizing that it was going to be hot as hell. Ben was great thou He really was, we packed the bikes up and off riding we went. we thought that it was be great to ride up 52 like i go to trouble's house. there are a lot of little shops if You ride up far enough and it is rather just nice country. well as we rode i get tired and right were i was ready to give up was the entrence to Winterthur, i really beautiful place to walk and just enjoy the out doors. and it seemed like a great place for Ben and i to wall around before making the trip back. well it did not work that way. i do not know if You have read Ben's blog yet or not but He is posting something in there which talks about the event. i was sooooo angery, the gaurd at the gate would not even let me get off my bike and walk it to the visitors center. that is just mean. after all the place is there for the public to enjoy, and they let horse in there why not me and my bike. well sad to say i was so mad that i turned my bike around and we rode home.and all i could think was.... i can't even go on the grass with my bike, i would fall over. ahh well it is another place that i am not going to go back to. nice or not.

On our way back home Ben and i stopped at a few places looking at things. then out of the blue He said would You like to get something to eat. i said sure, and we went to the Dinner. that was fun. it gave us time to think about the gaurd and what kind of letter that we wanted to write the company He worked for. after all why turn paying customers away if they are willing to walk or leave there bikes at the gate?

well we went home after having something to eat and showered and got dressed in something kind of nice. then off to a Freinds out for His picnic in which we really did not eat anything, but it was nice to talk to people, and to listen to what they were talking about.

after that we went to Long Wood Gardens for the fountain and fireworks show. that was just down right awesome. right as they were going to have the event a huge thunderstorm popped up. they made everyone go into the conservitory. because the weather people where saying to take cover, and the storm was bad very very bad. so we talked with the people around us for over an hour. waiting to see if the fireworks were going to happen. and surprizingly they did. at 10:15 they were going to go off, so back down to the field we went, and this time we got the best seats in the house, right upfront in the center. it was amazing. We were so close that we were covered with soot from the fireworks themselves. i loved it. it was a night filled with adventure and beauty what more could a person ask for.

as soon as i got home put bread makings in the bread maker and went to bed.

in the morning there was fresh bread, in which we ate... so i had to make another loaf.

then to Ben's Moms we went, to spend a wonderful day and night.

5/27/2007 - It seemed like a nightmare but i was not scared

Sun, 27 May 2007 08:30:47 GMT

I had a very messed up dream last night that is still fresh in my mind

there was some people in that dream that i knew, and it was just weird.

Ben was there and we were living in a house together, for some reason i was also at points driving in a truck, and there was an out break of Zombies, but it was strange too, because it was not quick the way the out brake happened there were people that where still moving about and doing things like they normally would, i remember being in a resterunt and also being in a grocery store, but what i remember most is that the devil wanted me and all this Zombie stuff was to get me to give up to give myself over to him. in the end things where getting worse people were dieing and zombies were everywhere, finally i was in the grocery store again bagging groceries to help out... and He came in and just said follow me we need to talk, we walked across the parking lot, and around the corner to a large house, and He asked "are you ready" can you deal with more? i leaned up against the building, and quietly said please make it so that my family, Amanda and the kids and joy and pickle and chenzo are safe that they will not be turned into zombies that they will live. hetried to say that it was to many lives for just mine, i only replied you seem to want mine the most to it's worth it. then He smiled and said yes i guess it is. wer shook hands and then He turned to the house and said wait here... a man came out that was a zombie and He came right at me, tackling me to the ground , smiling down at me say i wanted the honor... all went black i woke in the house, and was amazed that my mind was slow but okay, i could think, i was His but i could think. i wanted to be creative to paint something to play music just to make my now slow mind work to see if i could. i took a painting off the walls because at the bottom was notes musical note, and i reconized them i knew them as what they were, and i was excited about that. so i ran into the kitchen with the painting and show the devil saying see i know them i can think, i can play them, He asked to you remember the tempo. the speed at which those notes are played and i said yes.... He said good then playthem on your clarinet for me perfectly right now, and i looked at him as if he was nut, saying that i have not touched my clarinet for 10 years i need practice and my fingers are now slow how can i. and you know to think it felt like i was pushing throu a fog, it was slow and took effort. the next thing i know is that i am back at the house with Ben and we are talking He is a zombie now too. we are a green blue color, i am laying on the couch all depressed commenting that i am not hunger for flesh i really just want shredded wheat. Joy came over to the house and she was health. and looked at us all scared i told her that i would not bite. and we talked she told me of her mother that was in the hospital who was not going to live, she was crying, i hugged her, then walked to the window and looked out on a world filled with zombies. doing things here and then, next thing i know images are flashing before my eyes, that of women and telephone lines and trees, and beds with canapies... that is when i woke.

i think that this was the strangest, dream that i have ever had, and the more that i think about it the more detail that i see. the more that i remember of it.

5/18/2007 - updates

Fri, 18 May 2007 00:58:39 GMT

i thought that it was about time that i write something in here again after all it has been a llittle bit.

so what have i been up to???

well for starters i have been working alot.. so my days are filled with QC...

when i am not working i have been doing my best with the house keeping it clean and such..

oh there is one very exciting thing that has happened i am getting a new bike... yep i have it picked out and tomorrow i am going to pick it up..

it is what is known as a fuji finest 2.0 http://www.fujibikes.com/2007/bikes.asp?id=294&subcat=3#

it has the shifters that i like and well it is my very first road bike... i am going to ride it to and from the gym.. i figured that it would not hurt to get riding again hell i may be in shape faster that would be a good thing...

and yes i got a pink bike, it was the only one that they had and well i wanted to ride this weekend so i had to get a pink one...

oh and tomorrow we are getting a pad put in for the shed... plants are being moved as well...

that is about all i have for updates for now will be back later for some more

5/18/2007 - updates

Fri, 18 May 2007 00:58:39 GMT

i thought that it was about time that i write something in here again after all it has been a llittle bit.

so what have i been up to???

well for starters i have been working alot.. so my days are filled with QC...

when i am not working i have been doing my best with the house keeping it clean and such..

oh there is one very exciting thing that has happened i am getting a new bike... yep i have it picked out and tomorrow i am going to pick it up..

it is what is known as a fuji finest 2.0 http://www.fujibikes.com/2007/bikes.asp?id=294&subcat=3#

and yes i got a pink bike, it was the only one that they had and well i wanted to ride this weekend so i had to get a pink one...

oh and tomorrow we are getting a pad put in for the shed... plants are being moved as well...

that is about all i have for updates for now will be back later for some more

4/29/2007 - well the event happened

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 01:47:46 GMT

the charity event went off wonderfully

2600$ was raised for st. Judes hospital

this time i did not place... next time i will get them and get them good... /me grins

i am one determined girl....LOL

okay i am not going to write a long post because well.... i am one very tired chick...

night night all

4/24/2007 - HI there everyone it's update time!!

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 21:03:54 GMT

Hi,

i thought that i would come in and talk a little about what was going on in my life...

last friday i was rather upset. i had a call from a Dr. that was not the greatest and well i was scared, so i had to see the Dr. today. and well i think that Ben and i handled it very well and i am not crying or upset i am just looking into the facts about things... my Dr. is sending me to few specialist one is a High Risk Specialist at Christaina Hospital. He is going to work with the first Dr. and together they are going to deside what Hemotologist that i go see.

i have what is known as MTHFR with a double A1298C mutation.

http://www.pregnancy-info.net/mthfr.html

http://www.pregnancy-info.net/QA/answers-MTHFR_/

the above links are really good resourses. because of this discovery my Dr. feels that she has found the cause of the Miscarrages that i have had. so that is a good thing. but she says that i am an intresting case because i also have Von Willebrands which is almost the complete opposite of MTHFR... but they both effect different elements of my blood.

the Dr. would like to put me on injectable blood thinners and Folic Acid supplements, but is holding off until i see the High Risk Dr. and the Hemotologist. so she says in the end it will take about 6 weeks to come up with a good plan. that will have me pregant but watched so close i will be sleeping in the Dr.'s office lobby.

there are alot of Risks that Ben and I are going to take but we feel that it is worth it. so we are going to watch closely and let them poke and prod me for a while. I promise to listen to the Dr's all of them. and together both me and the little yet to be bundle will be health and happy.

so look at the links above and if anyone has questions please let me know. i will either find out the answer or i will add it to the list to ask the Dr. when next i see Her.

okay other news....

the charity thing is this weekend i am ready and waiting. i am sure that it will be a grand night. some really good friends are going to be there with me as well so wish me luck.

our nieghbor got a new greyhound he has just been off the track for about 2 weeks and seems to be a really nice dog. i wish them the best with the new family member.

Ben seems to still be loving his car... i am super happy that he is happy with it. and the hydro seems to be doing well as well. i think that we will have a nice crop kof plant soon.

faraday still thinks that she can fly. which she can not. but she will never learn.

the gym with Tony is going well a little hard to follow the diet but i am working on it... and the work outs are well kicking my butt.... i am going to reach my goal i know that i will i just can't give up.

oh here is one more thing that is awesom.... Ben got me an ipod... and boy do i love it... i got a blue nano. i take it everywhere with me and i my best bud when it comes to the gym.

okay i better say good night before i go rambling any more..

4/2/2007 - guess what?

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 22:56:14 GMT

there is another charity comp. and i entered into it. now so far i have been on a winning streak lets pray that i keep that up.

this time they added somethings to make it different... now there is a word list and i need to use 10 if i use more then i get bonus points. which is kind of cool... so knowing me and my competing spirt have use 2.5 times the amount required. bonus points never hurt.

the other thing that they did this time is have people select topics from a list. and there are only 10 to 12 posts allowed... so this makes things a bit more challenging.

so far i need just 2 more posts and it's done... the bad news is the event is not for oh weeks... then again the good news is that i can refine what i have and make it perfect. or atleast something that is completely to my tastes. bad news is that i hate waiting and well it looks like i am going to need to wait.

okay what other news do i have....

have been going to the gym a lot and slowly and surely loosing waight and feeling great. well kind of.. for some reason the last two times that i worked out my sugar dropped and well i got a little wooozy... i am working on repairing that.

i so need to thank Walt. the Marine running cadences are the bomb omg do i love them, i think that i have memorized them already, and i play them more then just at the gym. there is something about them that makes me smile. so i clean the house to them as well... why not it works. so if You read this Walt, thank You sooooooooooo much You are awesome. don't worry if You don't read this i am going to tell You any way. yep yep

oh there is another person out there that needs to be thanked and that is trouble... the bread machine You gave me and Ben is like awesome. it is more then awesome it is succulent. WOW... i think that Ben is in love with it as well... thou he does not make the bread he sure does enjoy it. in fact i have bread baking right now.

okay i think that i can start thinking about going to bed... i hope that everyone has a great night.

3/16/2007 - the insurance saga continues...

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 19:01:04 GMT

This is an update on the insurance story...

The Dr. called me this morning and she is awesome, she went to the billing person that they have there, who is just as amazing as the Dr. and together they figured out what dianosis code to use so that Ben's and my testing will be covered...

Can we say YAY for the Dr. she had me call the insurance company back and make sure that it would work and if we used this code would we still need a letter of medical nessesity... Lorain C. at the insurance company was nice and helpful something that is not always found.. she verified that the code would work and that it would be covered....

So tomorrow Ben and I go to have our blood sucked from us by the vampires...

Today i also started the harmon meds... so i am a little emotional and moody... but other wise good... We are hoping that this is going to work and we are on our way to a wonderful bundle of joy...

3/15/2007 - Dogs do not fly, but i know one that thinks she can

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 09:10:06 GMT

i just thought that i had to let everyone know that , i have a dog who thinks she has wings like a bird...

i am sure that everyone has heard of sweet faraday.. mug shot is below...

well this sweet sweet puppy thinks that she is a bird, yes she does, she thinks that her ears are wings and they at any moment she will be able to fly... well i have news for her.. she is not a bird, her ears are not wings and she can not fly!!!!!

this morning while i was working in the kitchen doing my wifely duties i look out the window and see faraday sitting on the grill. now i am use to her sitting here, this seems to be her favorit spot in the whole yard... at first she was curled up and watching what was happening in the yard and then she turned around and was watching what i was doing in the kitchen... i thought that this was kind of cute, so left her be... after all this spot that she has found is not that bad and she does not listen to me...

so i go about my business and finish the dishes...

i then like a good mom, go to let the hounds back inside... i open the door and walk out on the porch... and guess what i saw?

don't know?

well i see my lovely little girl faraday... on top of the wood pile happy as can be... making her way down so she can come inside... i nearly had a heart attack.... will someone please please tell my little girl that she can not fly and that she is not a cat, her little legs are not ment for climing....

3/15/2007 - adventures with our health plan

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 08:00:00 GMT

i do not know if everyone is aware that Ben and i are trying to have a little person...

i was about to give up, especially after losing the last bundle of joy. we were even looking at what it would take to adopt a child... Ben being the wonderful husband that he is, said before we adopt i want you to go to the Dr. one last time and see what we can do about this whole thing...

we did not trust Dr. Cooksey because of the really bad expearance we had with him. i just did not want to go through that all again. so i found another Dr. a girl this time. made an appointment and made arrangements for Ben to come with me as well. the appointment went great and we love her, she is awesome and straight forward. she thinks that within six months i will be pregant with a baby... that has just made ben and i super happy... she ordered blood work for ben and i so make sure that our chromosomes like each other.. a wise idea i think... and she also wanted to make sure that anything related to Von williambrants is not causing the hard time either... so there is blood work for that as well...

Ben wanted me to call around and find out how much this is going to cost us. so we could pick a good lab. so i called Qwest and Labcorp.. Ben's blood work is going to cost $1002.00 and mind is going to cost 3,726.00 ... okay if you have not died from shock. then please read on for more of the adventure... i called my insurance company to find out if they would cover the cost... and i was told...

" this is genetic testing so it falls under that part of the policy, so i looked it up in the book we have here. this test must be medically nessaray to see if there is a lift threatening defect or admormality, if so it will be covered if not then you will be responcible for such testing."

at this point i was like okay... the Dr. did say that if the lab did it correctly that it would be covered... so now i am not just scared i am getting frustrated... you see we have a 1000$ deductable on the insurance, so that means that the first 1000$ for ben's labs and the first 1000$ for my labs we have to pay, that is if it is covered by the insurance... if not then we are responcible for the testing in full...so ben asked me to call the insurance company back, so i did. i asked them this time if and how much they would cover in the testing... i was told that they need to be billed first because then they know what was done... i told the girl i know what is going to be done and the reason and what they are going to charge the insurance... i was again told that sorry they could not help me. we had to get the test done and then they will determine what they will cover and pay. i so wanted to scream... this was not hard i needed to know what we are going to pay out of pocket...

well i have a feeling that the stress brought on my monthing, and when that happens i am to call the Dr. and then she is to deside if i go on clomed or not. she was hoping to have the blood work done and reviewed by then but i guess not. so i called her and she called in the perscription to the pharmacy... today i am going to pick it up.. i do not start it until tomorrow. she is also going to call me today and see if we can change the blood work up or if she still wants to do it.

so i guess the adventure continues and we go on...

i have a feeling we have the worse health insurance there is... and we are paying for it, that is what really kills me... Ben is thinking of switching to something better, after all, there are other people in the company that have, because well it is just that bad and it pays for nothing.

3/7/2007 - i love my Hubby

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 10:48:09 GMT

okay i thought that i would write a little bit about my hubby...

He is well intresting... i hope people realize that i am trying to be polite...

what can i say about hubby...

He is His own person and has no idea about the world but i love that about him.
He is kind but does not want others to know it so he covers it up with satcaim and quick come backs
He is loving but hides that as well, because to be tender to him is to be weak, but i see threw it, and charrish the tender moments we have. i love that side of him.
He is a huge teaser and jokester... anoying as hell and rather frustrating but god does it make me laugh. an almost secret laug. that He tends to speak... this i think is because well it is His way to release to say good bye to the day and not use his brain.
He is smart... very smart... sometimes He confuses me. but that is okay i listen to Him any way... after all He is not a great teacher but He tries...
He does not have the greatest tolerance for mankind and the diversity of the world... this we clash heads in a lot... but you know what He always gives people a chance before He designates them as useless or idiots. /me smiles, it normally starts days of debate and a second chance. it is good that He gets my blood boiling.
He listens when i need Him to and tries to help come up with solutions to problems no matter how off the wall. Him listening is what matters.
He is good with His hands thou i would not have thought so, i need to give Him more credit at time for that and trust His creation,

i am still learning and growing with my hubby. i love Him alot.. thou we disagree and i would like to strangle Him now and then. we are a pair and i know that He cares as deeply if not more then i realize.

i love you Ben.

3/7/2007 - what a night

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 10:44:42 GMT

okay this is to replace the post that i did a bit ago but was lost...

i won 3rd place in a competion and well it felt great..

the first time i competed i recieved 1st place in the beginners devistion and this time i moved up a level to intermediate and still was able to place i think that was pretty cool.. as soon as i place first or second then i will be able to move up again...

~grins~ it is a goal but for now i am just happy that i did so well.

1/2/2007 - update

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 10:10:00 GMT

As i am sure that everyone has noticed i have been a bit busy.

work at Military really picked up over the Holiday Season. to the point that i do not think that i had the chance to even check my e-mail.

have also been working hard on some wed-sites that i am building. the templates should be up on barnyard soon for download. which is kind of cool. i am rather proud of learning how to read and write html and css. i am able to help alot of people out now with site building. in fact as soon as i have the one that i am working on done there are 3 right behind it. so that is really keeping me out of trouble.

oh and then i am working on my weight. trying to loose more. and get my body moving more. i really want to work on getting fit. it is not good living a sedentary life. it makes a persons butt big. so, i have a plan. yep i sure do. now, i just need to follow through with the said plan.

each morning i am going to do some kind of exercise before work and then again after work before dinner. all that good tasting holiday bad for you food has been driven out of the house. we (meaning Ben and i) are going back to veggies. and no meat. good thing i have a veggie cook book. so, it looks like there is a shopping trip got me in the future to pick up beans and other good veggie low fat low sugar stuff.... the key word there is sugar. i can not believe that i am going to give up sugar.. well i should not say give up but atleast reallllllllllllly cut back sugar is for sp. times and when i am feeling low and need a lifter-upper. hehe vanilla milkshakes yummmmmm. i have not had that i have had one in ages it is just that a girl can not give up everything yah know.

oh well i better give an update about Christmas dinner... oh it was to die for. i only ranted a little to get people out of my kitchen, there just was not enought room for me to work in there and other people in the kitchen as well. i know that my kitchen is a nice size up please people i need to move. so, i kicked everyone out. dinner was served right on time. andrew was a little late but that was okay. so what was the menu?

crown pork
sweet potatoe rounds
candied sweets
green bean casserole
potatoe puff
2 different kinds of rolls
corn pudding
cold slaw
cheese cake ap.
seitan veggie med.
apple raisain stuffing
cookies
3 different kinds of dip
party punch
egg nog

i know that i am missing something. but i think that was the gist of what was there.

as for the presents , i think that everyone was happy with santa this year. i know that i am. santa was very kind and loving. of course i have not gotten everything away yet and the decorations are still up. i kind of took a little time off from cleaning. but i have started up again. the laundry is being done and the kitchen has been reclaimed. i just need to reclaim the living room.

one i also better let everyone know about my car. it's in the shop again. i thought that my car was on fire because well smoke started coming into my vents and out from under the hood. i thought that may not be a good thing. the really bad thing was i was on my way to the DMV to renew my regestration. a wonderful time for my car to burn up. so i got to sit on the side of the raod waiting for a tow truck to come and get me and my car. and guess what was wrong? the headgasket. so lets see what has been replaced on this car. radiator, tran, battery, whole wheel things not just the brakes, altinator. okay so basicly i have a new car with an old body... good news is i get to pick the dying heep up from the garage tonight. oh i am so over joyed. (not) i think that i am just prolonging the death of the poor thing. it has had a hard life and now it is crying. the poor thing.

did i mention how much i hate the DMV?

i really hate that place, the caused me so much trouble that i wanted to cry. i litarly spent the whole day there standing in one line to be told that i need to go and stand in another line. then to be told that i was in the wrong line . to get a guy to question if i was even married or did i forge the documents... because he did not understand the concept of photo copy. Notorized by the cort of orphans. and he did not understand that when a photo copy is done it has the same information that the original has. hence if the original has return to the cort-house. that the copy would have the samething.... nice huh. Then to have them charge me when the website says that it is free. yeah right. and then to have them not ask me how i want my name and just choose one for me. well that just thrilled me. at that point i just gave up and said the hell with it. i am tired of all this bull plop. i tell you it was DMV hell. but i have a new lisence that they did not renew with a new pick that shows how pissed i was. and a new title for my car because they would not allow me to renew the registration without changing the name on the title.

okay i think that is enough for now.

i have 10 mins and then i need to start working.

ttyl